i love you casey. forever.

my mom put my dog down yesterday while i was at work. ten years old. got her as a freshman in hs after years of begging. i knew it would come to this, she was really sick. and at first i didnt believe it. even tho i was over there after it happened and there was only the one dog around wondering why everyone was crying and where the other dog went. now im crying so hard at just the thought of her being so alone where ever she is right now and how the other dog just looks around for her in all the usual spots. i moved out a while back and have my own little puppy right now and he's just looking at me like, 'what the heck is your problem?' this really hurts and sucks. i can FEEL the hurt deep down and surging through my veins like bee stings. i cant help but make fists and want to hit something. and i dont want to see anybody. i'm ready to kick my boyfriend out just so i can be alone and stop having to hide the tears.